Before we left for the trip to Guatemala in July, I spent time reading about Moses and God's calling for his leadership. I had many doubts about my ability to go and lead the seminars. I didn't feel like I was a dynamic speaker or had the authority to go and teach the directors and teachers at the schools. I had traveled many times doing seminars down in Bolivia and Guatemala but it was always with my friend Ruby. Ruby has a magnetic personality and naturally takes the leadership role. I was always very comfortable slipping into a supporting position. This time I would be the one, not only leading the trip but also teaching all of the seminars. I wrestled with God over my lack of confidence to take this leadership role. God reminded me of the verse from Exodus 4:10-13:
Moses said to the Lord, "Oh Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."
The Lord said to him, "Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
But Moses said, "O Lord, please send someone else to do it."
I knew that the Lord was calling me to go but through many doubts I had to trust Him to be my words and voice. My excuses were nothing in the hands of our Creator. When God calls us somewhere or to a particular task, He will equips us to do it. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." It was humbling to know that this was the first of many lessons that God would teach me on this trip.
-Kristin Knowles
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